Trust in Self

Trust in Self

            

I woke up this morning with such a feeling of gratitude that I am alive, in a perfectly wonderful body, able to watch an incredible unfolding of events, and participate in a change of worlds. I know there are people who feel like they don’t belong in 3D, where there is pain, and inhumanity. It feels so abusive, and they dream of going ‘home’. I understand the longing, but I’m not into the idea that home is somewhere other than where I am.

I’m at home within my universe, acknowledging this journey as the ultimate experience. Where else would I want to be? Now, people might say that none of this experience is reality. That’s fine. If I’m an actor on the stage, then I’m putting my heart and soul into the play. This play is where the action is.

Like most of us, I have read the various versions of how this world ends and begins anew, but I haven’t seen it through inner vision. So it is a comfort to re-read Stuart Wilde’s words, offered a few years ago: “I was shown how it ends. I was very honored to see that. It was a happy ending, very clean. I understood why the meek inherit the earth, it made me cry for joy. They deserve it. It is all in a divine order, trust.”

Let’s get into this by first asking, who are the meek? We can look at various people around the world, but I’m pretty sure ‘meekness’ is not on the surface. Searching through the dictionaries, I find that ‘meek’ points to persons who are patient under suffering, teachable, righteous and humble, restraining their own power so as to allow room for others… and doing it by their very nature.

One of the dictionaries even mentions enduring injury with patience and without resentment. What would enable a person to endure like that, without resentment? I’m thinking a great deal of faith, and trust… in something holy and eternal.

I actually set out today to talk about faith and trust. Seems like two ways of being that are not recognized as virtuous anymore, in fact they’re almost embarrassing words, associated with dogmatic religious faith, or naïve reliance on things not worthy; trust sure to be disappointed.

Maybe we’re just a bit jaded by experience. We know too well the arrogant, the profoundly skillful liars and controllers of us, the dead-hearted who have left their humanity, if they ever had it. We can watch and see their faces, and recognize the crimes written in their eyes and on their lips, and it seems we are quite powerless to affect them.

But… if it is all in divine order, then the play itself has the power. Let’s say that intention set the energy in motion long ago, and there is a clean ending, a resolution, a real ‘human nature changing for the better’ outcome. In that case what we need do is live with heart and courage, in service… because we do have a part in this play. We are here, and we will live it one way or another, as will the criminals.

Now let’s talk about what we can have faith in, and how we can trust. I think about it sometimes… what if I get to the end of the journey and find out that everything I believed was off base… mistaken. You know what? It matters not at all. As long as there lives, within the chamber of my heart, the light that is love, I will have done it well.

We can look at events, read the different prophetic messages, read about the change of the Ages, or the cycles, notice how evil destroys itself, and say yes, this is happening… the Light is returning and I’m here to see it and be a part of it. This is what I came here for. What a privilege!

Now, I’ve acknowledged that such thinking could be ‘off’, or it could be correctly aligned. Whichever one it is, this is where I stand as a soldier. I do trust… I have faith. Not because some people said some things and I see their visions coming to pass, but because the Light has been returning within me.

Reality within: I’m sure you know where this is going… our journey is to build trust in ourselves. It’s not an easy or quick thing, coming back to Self, because our conditioning has been so thorough. We are programmed to lie and believe lies, programmed to ignore our intuition, and oh so programmed to doubt ourselves. But we know that… and we’ve been working on that self doubt.

There are some excellent teachers and guides here for us, and we’re teachers and guides too, in our own way. Every teacher worth their salt will direct you toward your True Self and the end of doubt. If you find yourself out in space, trying to determine whether you came from this star system or that one, come on back and look for information that empowers in a down-to-earth manner. A good example can be found here: The Bittersweet Alchemical Furnace.

Meditation, physical disciplines, personal integrity and reliability, inner balance… you can find great guidance on all of this. Let yourself be intuitively led to information, and study and practice until that point when you ‘own’ it. And then don’t stop… love you and keep growing.

Earlier, when talking about the meek, I asked what would enable a person to endure injury without resentment? The answer was: a great deal of faith, and trust… in something holy and eternal. That something holy and eternal is Us, our inner divinity, our Light.

Trust in the True Self strengthens over time into faith. Faith is the victory. Or, as Helen Keller said, “Faith is the strength by which a shattered world shall emerge into the light.” Let’s celebrate your light and our light this Solstice.


Ida Lawrence